so tired,,

feeling sad

btw,i am sitting in bestberry.boredddddddddddddddd place

i just wanna focus on my study now.i wanna fulfill my dream but not keep talking it all the time...
damn you .give me power to do that dear.




i dont wanna give up now,i feel sorry to my parents.

what happened?

it would be good to say i miss you..........

今天和你的對話令我彷彿重回年多前的光境，很快樂但同時亦令我開始有點糊塗。其實我也知道這想法﹑感覺是大錯特錯的，但卻是難以否定的。
很想回到那個起點，很想重回到那一秒，其實我知是沒有可能的....
我的心聲都真實的寫在那封信上，我很想念你的微笑，你會知道嗎？

i am damn busy recently since i have to prepare for the A-LEVEL exam...

lol

I guess nobody would remember such stupid blog,right?

i am getting old and i need something to rely on

i dont feel any shame i wont apologize

do u love me?

I've Screwed up .Where is my MIND?
I should have concentrated on my study since my goal is quite hard to achieve.
when I got my academic report this morning,i wanted to slap myself for that shitty result at once.
I've promised myself not to be the distractible blockhead again.I should be a better daughter.
not to forget what i confessed to self cleanly...and now,it's time for me to eliminate all the negative thoughts,it's right to be wrong,right?
at the present time,dont promise what i cant deliever,its all my fault .

i'll make it
i am free-standing

btw the below is for u,get out of my life asshole
i am happy with my life since u are not part of it,bye,jerk
DAMN GO FUCK WITH YOUR PSP!!

u guys are fucking loserssssssssssssss

不知為何現在還未能夠平伏情緒 大概是有生以來令我感到最痛心的事吧忽然間過去十多年的片段隱隱約約地逐一閃出 如果真的存在「如果」 我願付出任何代價來換取父母姐弟健康只因他們就是我生存的意義回歸現實 有些事情總只能幻想

「樹欲靜而風不息，子欲養而親不在。」何以這句老掉牙的話　能悟其意之人卻廖廖可數？一連串的問題傾巢而出　愛恨無止境地痛擊著我
我有多久沒有好好的跟父母吃過飯？有多久沒有陪媽媽到街市買菜？有多久沒有致電關心一下他們？常常跟在媽媽身邊，不停的發問著，有多久我已沒有向媽媽撒嬌了？有多久沒有和父母溝通？

要不是昨天媽提到原來父親已經快年逾半百，她自己也四十多了....這還是我頭一回真真正正的感到父母原來真的不再年輕過去為養育我們總是不辭勞苦的工作　近來我已經沒有膽量去細望父母的日漸老化的身體我怕看到他們已轉白的頭髮；我怕看到他們因工作而得的傷痕；我怕看到那些象徵年老的紋跡；

雖然我的父母把最好的留給我，在我心中他們是最好的父母，但可悲的是我仍然是天下間最不孝的女兒。我恨自己未能早些出生　未能早點報笞你們從小時候你們已經需要留在大陸工作　我們相對的時間真的不多但我知道你們只是為了我們　積蓄下來的都是為使我們生活富足些


不過　我不配

Grey Room

Well I've been here before,
I've sat on the floor,
In a grey grey room.
Where I stay in all day,
I don't eat but I play,
With this grey grey food.

Desole, If someone is prayin'
Then I might break out.
Desole, Even if I scream,
I can't scream that loud.

I'm all alone again,
Crawling back home again,
Just stuck by the phone again.

Yeah, well I've been here before,
Sat on a floor,
In a grey grey mood.
Where I stay up all night,
And all that I write,
Is a grey grey tune.

So pray for me child, Just for a while
And I might break out.
Pray for me child, Even a smile
Would do for now.

So I'm all alone again,
Crawling back home again,
Just stuck by the phone again.

Have I still got you to be my open door?
Have I still got you to be my sandy shore?
Have I still got you to cross my bridge in this storm?
Have I still got you to keep me warm?

Cause if I squeeze my grape,
And I drink my wine.
Cause if I squeeze my grape,
And I drink my wine.
Oh, cause nothing is lost,
Is just frozen in frost.
It is open in time,
Is no one alive.

And I've still got me to be your open door.
And I've still got me to be your sandy shore.
And I've still got me to cross your bridge in this storm.
And I've still got me to keep you warm.

Warmer than warm yeah,
Warmer than warm yeah,
Warmer than warm yeah,
Warmer than warm yeah....

dear all
how's thing goin'? i am quite disappointed by myself recently.time cannot return,and that's why i am regret about what i've done in the past 3months.during summer time,i promised everyone around me,e.g. my parents,family,friends and teachers....i would ttry my best to study,to fulfill my dream.but what's the hell i'm doing? i spent 2months on a meaningless person,a meaningless memory,a meaingless realtionship,so what did i get from it? totally none!!!lets take a look about my study,psychology,well,perhaps i still need time to get improvemnet,and for chinese histry and LS (hong kong studies+china today) ,i do think there are suitable for me as i likes these two subjects very very much. BUT WHAT'S IRRITATE ME IS THE TEACHING PROGRESS BETWEEN ME AND MY CLASSMATES. take an example,LS,my teacher needs to expplain the concept again and again,why dont the students pre-study the content first?DAMN IT,GONNA FUCK MYSELF!
jerk,are you gonna be the one jackass that you used to be?
please remember what you have promised,alright!
i am gonna kill you,wahahahahjahahahaha

COLOR 29/11/06

i am back

約定

13/10/2006

.

gonna ignore everything around me...
it's worthless..

SIGH

FUCK UP

分手了

還有心
無言無涯

dedicated to my RONNIE

H-A-P-P-Y B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y!!!!
as i remember ,the first time i realized that there was a brasilian football player named RONALDO was in 1996,,the olympic game,i'll never forget that score..AND SURE,YOU ARE IN MY MIND

I LOVE YOU
NO ONE'S GONNA LOVE YOU LIKE ME...

I WOULD LIKE TO ASK THOSE HYPOCRITICAL GLORY FANS TO GO HELL