It has been already a year. This is my first entry in this year, I always wanted to write down things that happen to me, and sometimes some stupid fights just pop up in my mind that I'd never talk to anyone about it, cuz I know I'm just confused by myself. Like these days, I'm trying to hide from everyone except my family, no phone calls or messages to any others, I feel really sorry for being so distant to all my friends but honestly I'm having a tough time, all I ask is to give me some time to figure out what I want, you know, I'm not a young kid anymore which means I have to take the responsibilities of my future on my own, that irritates me so much....
I have changed a lot though out this year, and my life is totally different now. I went to nottingham for study in Jan and now I'm having holiday in HK, Its so hard to explain that I feel like I've always been here and sometimes I wonder " is it really what I want to do?", mum asked me to stay in HK cuz she really miss me for many times, but I told mum that I don't wanna give up, and thats why I won't come back until I finish the degree, please, stand strong don't be a loser again. I swear to it. Honestly, it breaks my heart everytime when mum says that she wish I were with her cuz parents are getting old and I can't even imagine what my life's gonna be without them, without anyone in my family. So since I returned from notts, I've spent almost all my time at home with chris and mum, sister is travelling in China now and dad is busy with his business, I'm so glad to see them again after 3 months, its amazing to be with them again!
Tomorrow is the mother's day in HK, it remind me one thing happened in march when I was in the UK. The mother's day there is in march and there were loads of advertisements, promotions, sales and I was totally mazed cuz as i know mother's day is supposed to be on the second sunday in may, but I thought it might be my mistake, so i searched different websites to prove that I wasn't that bad to forget the mother's day...i just wanna say I really love you mum! you are the whole world to me.
